Starting Over


You know that season when everything is going just great? Breakfast has been on point lately. The Barista hasn't gotten the coffee order wrong in a long while. The Sun seems to be shining a little brighter and longer these days. You’re having the best conversations with your best people. Meetings have been effective and short. And did I mention the Barista hasn’t messed up your coffee order. 
 

And then it all comes crashing down.

Someone says, “hey, things aren’t looking too good”. The relationship takes a turn for the dark side. The project you were devoted to for a long while falls apart. The days are long and seem never ending. You feel defeated. You feel misunderstood. You feel unseen. You feel like everyone else is doing it better than you. 

I get that.
I've been there.

All of that describes my entire 2015 up until a few weeks ago.

I had to go back to the drawing board. I had to go back to the figuring it all out zone. 

And to be honest, I felt horrible. I felt like a failure because I had to go back to the genesis of so many things. I had to take a long hard look at why things weren’t going the way I intended. I had to look at what I wanted and revamp my process. I’ve had to start over.

It SUCKED!

Then I realized something. I’m not going back to the genesis of my project. I’m beginning iteration number 2. I’m editing what has already been. I’m making that which was weak, stronger as I add pile-ons and bags of sand to my foundation to weather the storm, to figure out where the cracks and the holes are. Running into myself and having the hard conversations about my dreams and what isn’t working is a practice to plug the areas where I’m leaking vision, energy, and productivity. 

I had to go back to the drawing board. I had to go back to the figuring it all out zone. 

So I’ve begun to take a look at:

  • How I begin my day — Am I inspired? Tired? Dragging? Amped?

  • My Calendar — Does my schedule reflect what my heart cares about? Am I too busy?

  • Who & What Am I Pouring Myself Into— Am I giving my best away to people that don’t have a great return on investment?

  • Who Have I Been Diminishing Myself For— To fit in and appease others, have I neglected my truest self? Have I abandoned that which God has put into me?

  • My 5 Year, 10 Year, 20 Year Plan—What is it that I truly want? Is what I am doing right now contributing to or taking me away from where I want to be

So you feel stuck. You feel anxious for more. You feel like a loser because you may be starting over.


I say yea, I get it. But don’t.


Take time this week to audit you. Take time to let go of trying to fix others — that never works anyway. Take time to reimagine you. To reimagine a complete and whole you. Take time to see you as what you could be.

And then, Bracket on!

 


P.s. I’m expanding on exactly how I’ve been auditing myself these last few weeks and sharing these secrets exclusively to my VIP List. I don’t want you to miss the email I’ll be sending out this Wednesday. Get VIP’ed right now.

Meiko Seymour